Christmas eve
Christmas eve
On the night of Christmas eve, I spent the night with my Body.
I had been sick with the flu for a few days, mostly night fevers. That evening inflammation spread like wild flames through my nose, ears and throat. I was invited to cover myself in blankets like in a sweat lodge and raise the heat. I listened and stepped into the discomfort of a raging fire. My knees suddenly were hurting too, also on fire. I was asked to settle in the sweat pouring out of me and the pain. To come to the center of its presence and welcome it. A higher consciousness, my body intelligence? was showing me how to embrace pain with tenderness and care. It was explaining the beauty of the process that was happening like something to cherish and not to dislike and fight. Embracing was the way through.
I experienced being held in the most loving cocoon and surrender to it. I felt a sharp clarity of mind, as clear as crystalline water. I relaxed into the discomfort to the point of pleasure and the pain was both here and gone. I could simultaneously experience one reality or another. On one frequency I was hurting bad and on another at the same time, I was in pure bliss. Resting in a perfect nest, held by my body’s consciousness with love and no pain. I choose the latter and fell asleep in the most beautiful space I could ever sleep in, it felt like the perfect hold, perfect texture or temperature, perfect womb.
There was communication going on and an initiation. What was guiding “me” felt like higher Self, body consciousness and then who is the “me” talking among this team on board? :)
I learned again about illusion, choice, ability to transform, the power of love and surrender.
I am amazed with all this and with the invitation to uncover more and more the powerful organism we are!
